Sunday, January 15, 2006
if onli,i can stop the time at 080805.i dun mind havin any regrets in my life,but the time we have together was so short.n i am not even prepared to let go.maybe now when we have to go seperates waes to go home,everything wil be so gone.those memories will have to be left behind.so near but yet so far..sigh=[ if onli time can reali heal those pain that has been cause.i rather let time do so.but wat for if time is there yet my heart is stil not prepared to let it go,den what can i do?cant help fallin in lurve.cant stop al those pain.i noe lurvin u is the worse things ive ever choose.but al i can do now is regret when i noe,u wouldnt return.so jealous to see u chattin with maryann n etc but,i cant speak a word.i can onli keep those words i wan to sae,in my heart.wish u al the best with him,n hopefully,he is ur mr right.sigh.al i can do now,is to give up.im nt sure if i shld carry on with my plans on 080206.perhaps i wil regret but maybe its for the last time,before i sae a goodbye to her.shld my plans be continued?or shld i stop havin thoughts rummagin thru my mind.?sigh.ppl envy her for havi me to lyk her.but if onli she herself wil noe.how i wish,she wil understand how im feelin too.i have so many if onli in my mind.i have so many wish to be with her.so many plans for her.but to her,im just a irritatin gal hu is lykin her,foolishly.,im lurvin her,aimlessly.shld i stil continue or shld i just put a end to it?felt so hurt when i see 79113.
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1:40 AM
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Saturday, January 14, 2006
i stil long for u to return back to me once again______+ =[guess its all gone.sigh throw away al my letters le.it prove everything.sigh...felt lyk..breakin down once more.nowadays hasnt been a great week.cant get on with life.seems to brekin inside.as in realli breakin that type.sigh...so hard to let go..if onli she knows.................if onli.............sigh...hmmm.... heard that the 2/2 gal went back homeland.maybe around mid june den cum back. so sad arrx.haas.stil wan to show yuting hu is she lehx.haiiss....wha lao veri sad can.sigh...reali super the sad lo.but muz control arrx.cannot so weak oso.hais...she keep walkin here n there.so hard for me to blog can haiiss.veri stress in sch too.sigh..becum discipline veri hard can.i gettin suspensed soon le...n sum more with my sister's illness sigh....so stress can..sigh....... life hurts.im oreadi brekin into pieces n what's more,u're not with me nor by my side.if onli u can understand how i realli feel towards yew,im satisfied.=[
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11:43 PM
i stil long for u to return back to me once again______+ =[guess its all gone.sigh throw away al my letters le.it prove everything.sigh...felt lyk..breakin down once more.nowadays hasnt been a great week.cant get on with life.seems to brekin inside.as in realli breakin that type.sigh...so hard to let go..if onli she knows.................if onli.............sigh...hmmm.... heard that the 2/2 gal went back homeland.maybe around mid june den cum back. so sad arrx.haas.stil wan to show yuting hu is she lehx.haiiss....wha lao veri sad can.sigh...reali super the sad lo.but muz control arrx.cannot so weak oso.hais...she keep walkin here n there.so hard for me to blog can haiiss.veri stress in sch too.sigh..becum discipline veri hard can.i gettin suspensed soon le...n sum more with my sister's illness sigh....so stress can..sigh....... life hurts.im oreadi brekin into pieces n what's more,u're not with me nor by my side.if onli u can understand how i realli feel towards yew,im satisfied.=[
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11:43 PM
now im at tianling's ah gong hse.haiiss. feelin so sad nowadays can sigh.what happen lehx?hmmm its all abt her lo..haiss...so down n depressed.sigh..i felt lyk..cryin sigh..is lyk so damn meaningless to lyk her lah.sigh...i can match make wendy n her stead but what at myself?haiiss i reali felt lyk cryin can.feel so hopeless.what am i gonna do?i cried.sigh..i dun wan to sigh but nvmx lah.no body here also sigh..i read her blog.abt the maryann de.wha so sad lahh.sigh i wan cry leh i reali feel so.hopeless.sigh.. now they al sleepin,al like pigs can.den so eerie.veri scare.haiss.. cried for her. agn.
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12:19 PM
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Monday, January 09, 2006
+___________+youwillowaxbemylittleprincess+___________+todae i veri sadcan.haiss.long time i nvr update leh.sigh..i lyk esther back haiiss.i cry todae.in front of my er zi can./haiiss...i am like feelin so sad todae..haiis.wil she noe how i feel.i dun wanna lyk her but its all beyond my control.sigh....i now i have to let things go.i reali veri sad..but i nvr exactly tel ppl....wil they noe.i reali super the sad can haiis.....i nid her!!!!!!!!!!!!
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2:27 AM
+___________+youwillowaxbemylittleprincess+___________+todae i veri sadcan.haiss.long time i nvr update leh.sigh..i lyk esther back haiiss.i cry todae.in front of my er zi can./haiiss...i am like feelin so sad todae..haiis.wil she noe how i feel.i dun wanna lyk her but its all beyond my control.sigh....i now i have to let things go.i reali veri sad..but i nvr exactly tel ppl....wil they noe.i reali super the sad can haiis.....i nid her!!!!!!!!!!!!
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2:27 AM
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